In all honestly this post maybe not be helpful or relevant to anyone but me. I am happy, tired, overwhelmed and finding myself full of ideas and self doubt all at the same time. I find all these other residents around me to be so impressive and I see their passion. I share their passion, I think, but I also feel very small.

I wanted this post to be positive and not be self absorbed but , I feel like I’m gaining so much knowledge and I do not have the skills I need to put this knowledge to use. My hope is that I continue to listen and learn and stay encouraged.

Having said all that I’m so glad to be around such beautiful and great minds.

Learning all these exciting movements and initiatives around patient safety is fascinating.  But, more than that for me it is rocking my world. I’m not talking about the exciting-lighting-the-fire-in-me rocking.  I mean it is all but literally tearing apart my idea of what my role should be in medicine. I cannot, after this camp, continue to act as if I do not or cannot play a role in making medicine more about the patient. I cannot unhear all the resources, the mentors and the already pioneered programs that have started making a difference.  I came on this trip with such ignorance (& bliss), I refuse to leave the same way.